I wish I could tell you this, and let you know things are going to be okay. I know you feel so lost and confused right now, but I promise you things are going to be ok. I know you wake up each day and feel like a failure, living in a run down caravan on your grandparents property. You step out the door to a mess, dying plants, tattered tarps, and a world that's just devoid of colour. Well it really does get much, much better. You moved out. You're living with friends you haven't met yet, in a house you used to walk past every day, admiring the lush back yard. You've thrown your first proper party with your new friend, you often make cookies for everyone, and you live on the top floor! It's far from perfect, but it's so much better. When you wake up, you can see out the window into the yard, and into the park across the road, funnily enough, the same park you were asked out by your first girlfriend, way back in your first year of highschool. You've got your support work certificate, and you're about to get your first client! It won't be long now until you get your driver's license and then head off on your first road trip - your first real adventure! You had a great Halloween, Christmas, and new years, and spent all of them with the people that mean the most. You went to your friends birthday party, it was very chaotic, but also very fun as always! You're even planning your own DND campaign with a bunch of your friends! You're nervous as hell, but it'll be worth it! And as for the breakup, unfortunately some things just don't work out. You don't go to the concert with him, you don't get back together, and you don't work things out. You do hook up with him, and after delete his number, but on good terms, it really isn't as bad as it sounds. You still look out for the blue car, and still check the Scorpio horoscope as well as your own, but less and less every passing day. You have so many fond memories over the last 6 months. There have been some tough times, but trust me, you are stronger than you think, and you will get through them with your head held high. You gain confidence and strength. You know what you will and will not tolerate from anyone, and you're learning to stand up for yourself. So again, I wish I could go back and tell you this. You're at your lowest, and I know it's hard to get out of bed every day, but I promise it will get easier. You just gotta keep pushing. You got this. Also, you should wear more sunscreen and drink more water, Love, your very sunburnt but happy future self